Happy Crapiversary

Its raining today.  The kind of rain that makes you want to climb back into bed to watch old reruns and your favorite movies.  I almost did just that when I got home from the bus stop drop off but remembered the date and thought better of the movie and bed plan. Today is not the day for me to head back to bed.  Today is a day to feel alive and growing. Today is October 16, 2014, it has been exactly five years since my very first oncologist had to say the words, "You have cancer."  Five years. Hard to imagine.  Five years ago the floor dropped out from under me and my life changed, never to return to what it once was.  

I have often said that I am not grateful for having had cancer.  I still stand by that.  I tend to be grateful for things that aren't trying to kill me.  Chocolate, iced tea, my family, my friends, the ocean, the list goes on and on.  You will never, however, find cancer on that list.  That being said, I like who I am today.  I like the person I have become and the person I am becoming.  Some of the changes and growth that I have experienced come from having fought for my life.  I'd like to believe that most of the growth would have occurred anyway...just perhaps on a slower scale.

So, Happy Crapiversary to me!  Here's to many more Crapiversaries....kind of like a birthday, but not.